How To Move Forward, When Life Feels Broken Beyond Repair.

When my beloved husband went to Heaven at the age of 45, I felt like life as I knew it was over and I couldn’t imagine how to step forward. In fact, it felt like my own heart had stopped beating with his. But the ache didn’t lie. I was still here with four children to guide, most of them still teenagers. They were on the cusp of adulthood. Who would lead them forward? Who would teach my boys to become men? Whose arms would comfort our daughters. I wanted to do all those things but was struggling to find how to breathe, myself. Then His Spirit breathed, upon us. He gave us permission to hide our hearts in His shadow.

What does it mean to hide in His shadow, while he puts us back together?
What if we believed that the things of this world have not broken us,
but only bruised us?
Dear ones,

We may feel shattered beyond repair and of no use to Him or anyone.
But we are merely being refashioned for another purpose.

Psalm 91 makes some mighty promises:

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress.”
My God, in Him I will trust.
He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your buckler.
You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
BUT it shall not come near you.

He shall call unto me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him.

Abide.
Trust.
Take refuge under his wings.
Use your shield, let every thought be sifted through the voice of truth.
Don’t give in to fear.
When you call, He will answer.

“But trouble surrounds me,” you say.
“Where is he?”
He is with you in the trouble. He is with you and He will deliver you and give you honor.

And after you have suffered a little while he will strengthen confirm and establish you!

The secret beloved is to not get lost in the dark. Why do you think scripture speaks so much about the light? Because, he knew there would be darkness beloved. In this world you will have trouble, not you might or if you are good you won’t… but YOU WILL have trouble.

But take heart, he says, “I Have Overcome the World.”

So how do we follow the light when darkness seems to surround us? We start by not looking at the darkness.
Have you ever stood outside on a dark night with only the light of the moon to illumine the dark? I am mean really, dark, without even a street lamp for comfort.
The darkness is an inky black, and the more you stare into it the more disoriented you become. But, glance at the moon, the only source of light, and objects take on their perspective. Shadows recede and tree branches take on a beautiful etching across the night sky.
Beloved we must keep our eyes on the light rather than the darkness to keep our perspective.
The enemy would have us overwhelmed, overcome, dare I say lost?
But take heart,
You have a safe place to hide, under His wings.
You can trust Him, He is a good king.
Send fear on its way, because when you call, He promises to answer.
Maybe it’s loud and you need to get quiet so you can hear him. Maybe you are tired and you need to rest.

Let him lead you beside quiet waters and restore your soul.
But come what may, never forget that He is with you! He is! Fear is a liar, darkness distorts our vision and our feelings that carry such weight with us, don’t always speak truth.
His word is the anchor that holds us in any storm.
Fix your gaze back on him, hide in His shadow and let Him do his holy work in secret.

Let him piece you back together fit for the purposes He still has in store for you.