I am caught somewhere between Thanksgiving and Christmas. I am in the “Season of Change” perhaps you are too.
Christmas is over at our house but you can bet I’m going to keep every light and bit of greenery up for a good long while! You see, my son came home from Marine bootcamp at the beginning of November so we celebrated Thanksgiving early. His 10 day leave turned into 20 days which meant he wouldn’t be home for Christmas so we had our family Christmas last weekend. Now, I don’t know what day it is.
This is only our second Christmas without my love and their Daddy. While we have grown proficient at seeking and savoring any joy to be had, the changes taking place are stretching my seeking, heart thin.
I feel a bit weary of being brave. I can look back and see how much God has done in one year and be grateful. He gave us direction and courage to step out and move to a new state only 3 months after Alan went to Heaven. He assigned me very simple tasks that would press me deeper into Him. They were move, write, heal, and connect with His body,(the church.)
I wanted more specifics and a 10 yr plan. But His grace is sufficient for today.
Whether I feel brave or not change is happening. My younger son just embarked on his career as a Marine. My older daughter and her family including my only grandchildren are moving away. It is the next chapter in their story and while my heart aches at the separation I rejoice that God has a plan!
Do you wrestle with change? Do we value our own comfort over God’s divine plan? I am asking myself these questions.
Courage can be found in the being still and knowing that He is God. It can be found in the waiting places that tax our patience and try our trust in Him. Courage can also be found in the stepping out “in faith.”
I want to be like Abraham who packed his tents with gusto, knowing not where he was going. I want to be like Elijah, who traveled 40 days and nights to the mountain of God, to hear His still small voice. I want to be like Sarah, who believed God would keep his promise.
But, I am me. I soar on wings of faith and trip over my doubts and fears. Then, I get back up and “Lift Up My Eyes,” to…
“Keep right on going because I am keeping my eyes on the invisible one,” just like Moses.
Are you in a season of change? What is keeping your eyes from the invisible one?
“It was by faith that Moses left the land of Egypt, not fearing the king’s anger. He kept right on going because he kept his eyes on the invisible one.” Heb.11:27